Abnorsen's Mind...

boardwalkdance

2006-07-14T09:13:00.000-05:00

And there will be daisies galore,
spread out on the dance floor,
trippin on stems,
the wind will blow the petals,
dont worry dear,
we have all night to let love settle.

A horizon of sunrise,
the salty aroma in the air,
the deepness of blue within your eyes,
And i move a strand of hair.

CHORUS)

A step to the back, then to the side,
A smile on your face with every stride,
A twirl and then dip,
a soft kiss on the soft lips,
the waves will keep rythem to this boardwalk dance....

i dont think we'll notice,
the tourists pack up,
and the banjo stop playing,
we will be too hympotized
by the rythem of our bodies swaying.
We wont be able to say goodbye,
we will be speechless when we try,
and we will glow under the moon,
like a dance of angels in the sky
then we will realize the time,
but wont fight to get home,
we will sit on a bench and look at the incoming sea foam,
the way the waves constantly keep beat, i
ts like our hearts and the throbs in our feet.
And id grab your hand,
just like the first time,
and when we kiss,
itd be just like the first time....

reality

2006-03-07T23:59:00.000-05:00

reality_______03.08.06

And the refrain in this song is that Im refraining from, all the stupid things that I once had done, and the only bridge within this ryhme is the bridge over death that Ive crossed a million times.

Flunked my classes, dropped out of school,
Spent my money on ciggarettes,
Take it in, Blow it out, yeh now Im cool.
Spent my life with my friends acting like fools,
We figured whats life if it contains rules,
I answered to no one,
Heroin and Handguns,
Blue and Red Lights and I run,
Blank Tombstone here I come.

Concious, whats that?
The little voice that tells me to put it back?
When i walk into that store,
Grab a 24-pack of Coors,
The cashier would stop me if he wasnt dead on the floor,
A bullet through his chest as I walk out the door.

Prom night, had a girl in sight,
Some guys had her and we started to fight,
All I wanted was a short dance,
I only wanted a small chance.
But thats the night I stopped caring about girls,
Got caught up in money and drugs and how it ruled the world.
You could call it economy,
Drugs, Beer and Jealousy,
They keep the world spinning around,
At least thats what i thought before I left that burning town.

And I never cried, never teared up my eyes,
Never really cared to watch the sunrise.
And Id sleep on the streets,
Wasted or stoned,
Freeze to death every night alone.
No money for the pay-phone, but who would I call?
Its not like I have friends, or anyone at all.
I search for food through dirty trashcans,
Its all dirt and dust, havent seen grasslands.
And Ive screwed up my life with drugs and addiction,
but Ive turned myself around, against all my predictions.

I apologized to mom, apologized to dad,
Said they were something I was wishing I had,
But now Im back, now Im home to stay,
Locking out creeps and all my old ways,
And video cameras can watch me sleep,
But seriously there is no need.
Im not home to kill,
to hide and then steal,
Im just here to say that Im not who I was,
Im different now, thats what life to a man does.

rose petals

2006-01-28T21:22:00.000-05:00

___________________________________rosepetals____________01.28.06

Rose petals on the ground,
Both kept quiet, don’t make a sound,
And as she exteds the names,
Shes skipped herself, so he quit the game.
He didn’t give an answer,
A touch of verbal cancer.
The next thing they know, they’re split apart,
Almost slit my heart,
Everyday I’ll add to the chart.

So I dried out a lily,
And kept it in magic,
Nah I’m foreally,
I found out whats tragic.
Not all dreams come true in karma cartoons,
You gotta come back, the magic ends soon.

And I was riding around,
And I noticed this girl, that I had met in town,
My muscles felt weaker,
Currington in the speakers.
Should I get out and greet her?
Yeh it sounds like a plan,
So I got up and walked up to her van.
“Hey you wanna get some steak?
And top it off with cheesecake,

Turn down memory circle till it brings us to where we are,
I see you through my window, wait im back in my car.

And I get back out and you here me shout,
You let me in, man it’s trashed,
Cups from Arbys, and wrappers from string cheese,
Counting backlights on the highway,
Red ants disappearing, song comes on you know and your voice is all im hearing.

And you looked in my eyes of sea foam green,
And I looked in yours and I think I had a dream,
Who is that, where do I hear that scream?!
Woke up In a cold sweat,
Soaked through my beater, got my chest wet,
Where was I when I left you,
What were we about to do?

And just as Beauty saw the Beast pass on,
And how he took out the rival Gaston.
And just as the petals fell just in time,
Hey I gotta plan, say something next time.
Nah don’t get me wrong, It was me all along,
But of we said something,
There’d be no reason to write this song,
And that would bring sadness to the merry month of may,
And why would I destroy such a happy holiday?
A letter to a girl from a boy,Sincerely me, hope you enjoy.

enterboyfriend

2006-01-21T20:53:00.000-05:00

___________________________________enterboyfriend___________01.21.06

Verse1)

Notables with a whitewashed face,
Or maybe its to make up for lost space.
I give you a hug as a mark of embrace,
Sneak out your window, not leaving a trace.
As you close the blinds behind me,
Someone knocks at your door, now who could that be?
Enter boyfriend, good to see you again,
How was your day? How have you been?
Leaving your yard I look back at your window,
Two silhouettes doing more than friends do.
Blow a kiss and it bounces off the glass.
I’m just waiting here for time to pass.

Verse2)

Peddle my bike right by his new car,
Dang I wish I didn’t live so far.
Tonight I’ll look by myself at these stars,
Star falls, one wish, could it not be so hard?
And the fallen petals from the lonely Valentines Day,
I’ll ask you one year, but now I’m not allowed to say.
Don’t use your money; I’ll take you out honey,
I’ll buy you lunch, maybe more than once.
On a single bench in the middle of Central Park,
We’ll stay together for a while, until it gets dark.
Then I’ll walk you home, upstairs alone,
Sneak out your window not leaving a trace,
Enter boyfriend, you’re here to replace.

betterday

2006-01-16T14:42:00.000-05:00

Erin, the last song was about someone, not a star. I cant sing so hence it's not going to have audio...lol....

heres another....

_____________________________________betterday_____01.16.05

Verse1)

He’s taking a smoke,
As she calls for a cab,
She raises the kids,
While he’s stuck in rehab,
He’s drunk all the time,
Leaving me behind,
Daddy come back, I’m not gonna be fine.

Chorus)

Daddy stop stumbling,
I’m following in your paths.
Tell mommy what’s troubling you,
Would it hurt to smile or laugh?
I’m still behind you,
Watching everything that you do,
So throw the bottle away,
Lead me daddy, to a better day.

Verse2)

For all my life,
I’ve watched a strange shadow,
Stumbling and slurring.
I’ve been consistent to follow,
And giving all that he’s deserving,
Drink some of this water dad,
I kept count of all the beers you had,
I wish you could come out and play,
But since that’s not the case, lead me on to a better day.

Verse3)

Good morning daddy and goodbye,
Had you been sober you would know how mommy and I,
Stayed up on the couch waiting for your arrival last night.
3am is later dad,
Mommy is still asleep in bed.
Why is your face all bruised?
Did you get in a fight?
And if you did, did you win or lose?
Dad can’t you be a dad for once,
Take me to a game or even out to lunch?
Put up the beer,
It’s not welcome here.
Daddy stand straight I pray,
Lead me on daddy to a better day,

constellation

2006-01-15T23:32:00.001-05:00

_________________________constellation___________01.15.06

Chorus)

So this is your constellation,
The art of all your frustration,
Where your kept captive during you fear,
Where you can cry away your tears.
Look a your constellation,
With the brightest shining stars.
Call upon imagination,
But I love you how you are.

Verse1)

Tonight I wonder, if the moon itself is smiling.
Cause I hear thunder, and the wind itself is whining.
And as the rain pours down,
And as I’m walking around,
But had you of been here,
It would have been clear.

(Chorus)

Verse2)

If every star,
Knew how cute you are,
It would never burn out,
And I guarantee,
Whether or not you agree,
That the stars will change position,
If you happen to ask them.

Verse3)

The little dipper and his big brother,
Listen to your every command,
The moons’ empty craters and the unfound creatures,
All wish to just shake your hand.
Another lost day here in outer space,
Another long day longing for your face,
So look up tonight dear,Ill find you right here.

Elysian Farewell

2006-01-07T15:09:00.000-05:00

Background: The Elysian fields were what the Romans sought as the "heaven" or "nirvana."

Hence the song...

_____________________________________________elysianfarewell_______12.14.05

Verse 1)

Elysian farewell,
I see you ask so I tell,
How I ended up here,
Burning in hell.
It begins with this girl,
With a smile for the world,
But the end of this telling,
Left me constantly failing.

Chorus)

Elysian farewell,
I send greetings from hell,
O Dear Apollo,
What’s left to follow?
It’s not like I tried,
To make this girl cry,
And I never asked,
To accept this task,
Elysian Farewell...
Elysian Farewell...

Verse2)

Well you’ll find her, if she doesn’t leave,
Wiping her tears, with her soaking wet sleeve.
You could be her hero,
She would let your words flow,
This false set of falsetto,
This manikin to let go.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

You say you’ve tried your best,
But I just don’t follow the rest.
Exit confusion, combine our illusions.
Dear girl, you sit alone,
Don’t you know the way home
Or are you still recovering,
From the fall of your heart breaking.

(Chorus)

Verse4)

I apologize for what was said,
I’m the one out of luck,
Im left with a whole life left to dread,
And you think you’re the one stuck?
Farewell Elysian,
You fields of allegiance,
I don’t belong anyway,
Sing along, let my heart fray.

(Chorus)

_ialwayspicturedyouapainter____

2006-01-06T13:59:00.000-05:00

I posted two in a row here. The one below is called "leech"....read and enjoy.

______________________________ialwayspicturedyouapainter_____01.05.05

Verse1)

The sad silhouette,

Waiting for the moon,

The eerie voice in silence,

Remembering I’ll leave soon

The happiest alive,

For not even a minute,

The day’s number was too complex,

Create mail and then send it.

Chorus)

And in my mind I always pictured you a painter,

And you painted a picture in my mind,

I had dreams in different colors,

And you promised you wouldn’t leave me behind.

Verse2)

But my colors were dreamed differently,

I envisioned ships out sinking in the deep blue ocean,

But I heard that loose lips sink ships.

I remember looking in you’re eyes,

But there are too many other guys who are better,

I can see us swimming in the water, but I’m the one who’s wetter,

Cause I’m holding you in my arms,

It doesn’t matter what will happen, I promise I’ll always be here,

And even if I’m somewhere,

You’re still the one I loved first.

Verse3)

With my fingers on your lips,

Cause there’s no use in words,

Cause we already know the other enough,

And a kiss on the cheek turns a little out of hand,

And it ends with you having the same trust that you had for me,

Cause I would never do anything to lose it.

Verse4)

Maybe one day, I’ll see your beauty

On one of those cool magazines,

And I’ll see you got hitched and happy,

And I’ll remember a day when I asked my heart away,

And stress was too much to decide an answer,

I will see some happy teeny bopper walk right out of Wal-Mart, and she’s holding a tootsie roll I sold her, and a People magazine.

Who would’ve thought, that now and then, those two had met.

leech__

2006-01-06T13:57:00.000-05:00

___________________leech_____________01.06.05

I know I shouldn’t have been involved,
While you were content as you are,
It’s not like me,
I’m above that,
I look alone at these stars, and one begins to fall.
And I’m sorry for interfering with you and him,
Don’t worry my friend, it won’t happen again.

Your picture still remains on my wall,
Your ring, I still possess,
But your heart is not here at all,
It belongs to someone else.
I’m a leech, holding on to what was good,
I’m a leech; just kill me if you would.

I’m going to give some space,
But not going to let our memories erase,
Dreams I’ll let be chased, but by themselves,
‘Cause your heart I don’t possess.
Like a leech that I am,
Hold onto everything that I can,
Don’t loosen my grip,
Even when you’ve implied me to quit,
But I’m gone now,
Continue on pal.

Your mine perhaps later on I hope,
Wash my hands and this time I use soap.
Don’t think about me please,
While you’re with another guy,
Hush baby, let time fly.

2006-01-03T15:19:00.000-05:00

This is one about a friend that I havent seen in years....
I posted two at a time, so read the one below too, it is definently cool.....

_____________remember_________01.02.05

Verse1)

Sixth grade was when she began to fade,
From my memory,
But on occasion, I come to realize
That to forget would lead to chastise.

Verse2)

Four years later,
We actually talk,
About animals and how it’s not her fault.
I play Dr. Phil,
I’m just a stranger but she lets me talk still,
Isn’t Mexican food cute and yes root beer is not,
But after all these years, I still haven’t forgot that….

Chorus)

She was the beauty queen,
She played nice, boys played mean,
She had the looks,
She had the smile,
We didn’t talk for quite awhile.
She waved her hair,
I waved goodbye,
I moved from there,
Please don’t ask why.

Verse3)

To take a break from what’s best could be good,
It’s a diet of the heart,
To much good stuff, got to go back from the start.
To confirm your choice,
To make sure you’re right,
Just make sure that there are no doubts,
For that is what causes all the fights.

Verse4)

Remember I’ll be here after everything is settled out,
Remember I’ll be a friend you can talk to if you ever need to,
I’m a dry shoulder,
I’m open arms,
I’ll beat up anyone who causes you harm.
I’m not just saying this to make a great song,
This is how I’ve felt all along.
I know things will work out,
You’ll find where you belong.

2006-01-03T15:17:00.000-05:00

________________phelpsfamily________01.02.05

Chorus)

She throws her money away in the lottery,
He’s wasting his at the races,
The kids are stuck at home,
Unfed with dirty faces.
The Phelps family is in every city,
Kids neglected, parents too busy.
An angel kisses the kids heads and tucks them in,
Cause mommy and daddy are too drunk to come in.
Phelps family, Cry Phelps family.

Verse1)

They wake up to an empty home,
Not the first time, they’ve been left alone.
They all stick up for each other, watch out for one another,
Lock the doors behind them as they catch the bus,
Holding hands they enter the world once again,
Nobody likes them, but they are all best friends.

Verse2)

The youngest is dropped off first,
She hugs her siblings, then turns to the oldest brother,
And she asks when will she see father and mother,
Run along child, go focus today,
Be safe when you play,
And before you eat make sure you pray.
And off she goes, hair in half pig tails,
It’s ok though, she things it looks swell.

Verse3)

They come home from school,
See mom’s car in the driveway,
There faces light up, though the soot and dirt covers them,
They run inside and see mom talking on the phone,
They go do their homework and leave mommy alone.
She’s out for a smoke,
And daddy comes in,
And as the kids begin to tell him of all that they did,
He cuts them off says, “Kids, daddy can’t talk right now. I’m going to the races with some of my pals.”
“Yes daddy. Please be safe, we will tell you when you’re ready.”

Verse4)

So this is how most days pass in the Phelps house,
The kids just waiting for a chance to be noticed.
Mommy and Daddy just too busy wasting money,
Money meant for everybody.
Little boys need a man to look up to,
To show them how to use a hammer,
And to teach them how to tie there shoes.
Little girls need a lady to watch,
To do their nails,
And teach them how to be beautiful.
Angels weren’t mean to do all this,
But they’re there just in case you miss.

2006-01-01T22:14:00.000-05:00

1)New Years Eve party '05, Cam, David, and I jammin' in the garage. Missing the ball drop cause of me.

2)Getting my drivers permit.

3)Spring '05 Prom, Kaitlyn, Jessica, Chris, Andrew, Molly, Bekah, Andy, Cam, David, Timmy, Ben, Amy, Rachel, MC, Cam, and others spending the night at our house afterwards, and going to the beach the next morning.

4) CWIS '05, passing the Venus Fly Trap bill, butterfly song, yeah there still were some good memories from CWIS this last year.

5)Hanging out at Jared's for a weekend, the headless horseman.....going to the gym, going crazy...

6) Chillin out at my aunts house in Raliegh with the French exchange student, Romain. The pool, go carts, inside jokes...

7)Aaron coming down and practically living with us from September till Christmas.

8) Swimming in the Atlantic during Hurrican Ophelia.

9)Beach and surfing

10)Picking up skateboardin

11) Going to Haiti...crazy inside jokes....

12) State Fair with Kaitlyn and Chris and Jessica...

13) Debate tourney going 6-0 for the first time

14) Talkin more with Ashley Williams, renewing friendships...

15)Thanksgiving..man I love the food....

16) Bringing in '06 at a party in Canada with Aaron and Asher and Ashley and crazy Canadians

17) Staying in Canada for New Years with the Roffels, seeing Sarahlynn and all the other friend Canadians....and Steve, and having the Canadians come down here.

And so there is more...a good year, I hope to strengthen parental trust this coming year. Maybe not get grounded as much. Continue writing poetry and songs, and becoming a better person.

Peace kids. Happy New Year.

benb///

Over her and under the weather

2005-12-31T17:07:00.000-05:00

So I’m finally over her,
And now I’m under the weather,
Sick of drama and I don’t know whether
I could have taken another moment of it.

A whole decmeber and from what I remember,
It wasn't fun at all.
Vomiting in the bathroom stall,
And when I'm dying for her,
I realize I am over her,
I bowl of soup, Im under the weather.

My heroine before heroin

2005-12-31T03:48:00.000-05:00

___________________myheroinebeforeheroin____________12.31.05

I've been aquainted with this girl,
Before she fainted and from this world,
She was my first choice for the prom,
And so I proudly brought her along.

She was my life, my breath,
She was all I had left,
She had success written all over her cute blue dress.
She was my heaven through sin
She was everywhere Ive ever been,
She was my heroine, before heroin.

Shes out every night,
She high as a kite,
Shes found interest in her new drugs to hold her up.
I still come over, try to talk it over,
but she tells me to shut up.

How could this change so quickly,
I dont agree with what Im seeing.
My best friend is leaving,
Shes never mine anymore.
I wave goodbye, she slams the door.

Long Distance Call

2005-12-29T02:48:00.000-05:00

I play that breathtaking memoryOver in my head again and againAlthough the moment seemed to last foreverReality was it was probably only tenAnd with life as my path and this as my endeavorI sit and wonder what more is there to knowA simple package packed in such a fancy bowSeems like this memory is sugarcoatedI grabbed your hand and off we floatedMy mind adrift my heart afloat.Your voice on my phone from leftover gloatAnd not knowing how this is going to turn outI hushed your voice I silenced your shoutHow much longer must I wait before I know that we are meant to be?Just as long as destiny takes us, it will though you'll seeYou will finally know that you are right for me.And all the sounds of life will join this euphonyOnce again you will find yourself wishing for that memoryNo dear, I do now, I've remember what I've lostWhy wait, when your future is blankly standing right in front of you?That's what I say, but the actions gave the chance awayPerhaps, luck is what you needIt may be true, but could luck make love succeed?No indeed it's false, but luck gives love a hopeOh most certain I wish moments could be rewoundJust to here your voice, a soft and calming soundAnd to look upon your face and agree God is profoundBut how can I love you when distance is such a matter When all of my heart at any point may shatter?Distance can't rule out loves existence, but that's why i've been hesitant, and I don't want to break a heartLet's just let our love free Why hold back what could be?And all the times that could be memories, wasted in part by foolish meWasted they were not, Memories are memories and that's all we've got.I'll always be the one who fought, the one who'd take a bullet, the one who'd get shot, The one that was persistent and consistent in loving youSo I offer thanks because I think that it's welcomed,And I just wish I could rewind to the memories in the past We'll make so much memories that you'll have to play them back fast, cause with as long as you live, I know it would last

I am flower

2005-12-23T22:15:00.000-05:00

Sorry I have been absent....Here is my newest. It is the jam.

_________________________________iamflower________12.23.05

Verse1)

Let truth speak mellow,
Amid all my flowers yellow,
Play the soft chord, hum to the melody,
Against all evil and wicked felonies.

Chorus)

And when you cry, call me up,
I’ll ask why, you’ll hush up.
“I’m going to die.” “I’ll fess up.”
I say I lied, you poison the cup,
You ask which one, pill or powder,
No dear listen, I am flower

Verse2)

Exchange argument to time the day,
The sun in stone, I’m burnt by the rays,
A sundial if broken, does it mean the day will end,
Please repair man fix it as fast as you can.

Verse3)

As a biggest fan, I grab your hand,
Roses at your feet, I thought I was the band.
Beauty lies inside, but the outer being is cute though.
Enough broken hearts, Can I please explain what you don’t know.

Verse4)

The cost of the pay phone was too much,
As I am cut off before explaining all and such.
You didn’t care, but when I played with your hair,
You said I must stop; It’s just not fair,
Wishes and turnpikes, if I’m in jail, I’ve lost the fight.

Verse5)

A prelude to a question, but don’t bother to answer,
A front porch discussion, a touch of verbal cancer.
A sigh for why, wait what is this a cut? Blood or mud, or tears mixed with all.
I lied, but I’m the one to fall.
If someone breaks a heart,
Someone must repair it,
Who could pick it apart?
Or even try to tear it, or share it, or wear it,
It is you’re my lady peace,Cover up love, let hate cease

My Honest Ramblings...._10.01.05

2005-11-16T23:43:00.001-05:00

a livid fight from on the previous night, like the hash browns cooked too long in the weathered sand. a newspaper boy on a flight to next week, broke off a piece and said he’s now weak. Uncovered with clothes but covered with those and the next thing you know your no longer first chosen. Leftovers from 5 years ago, it has mold on the top-you let it grow, you said it’d stop- but how did you know. For times are built up on cavemans tree stumps and last Friday was just another way to get flunked. right out of school lying on the playground, expelled cause I rebelled but that’s not the point. from my friends to no friends, from soft sand to black dirt. From living life large, to shallower than I can touch, just because you left your lunch, at home, while on the phone, and the double digits that divide your number, like a life saver that saved death, and then brought it back and forgot the rest. a different dollar for another lipstick coated coller, and the time is like time of the others. Hide and seek, without the seeking part, cause you hid my heart, and tore it all apart, so now if I seek, ill only find, that I was left behind and that my beating has decreased to a soft impulse needed to be let out. But out of what, the fire? oh no…out of rays of sunshine from where it basks and then it asks how its gotten so ruined and you look at it through your cell phone and say it wasn’t your doin, but we all know it was, if by we all I mean nobody, cause you kept it a secret, your little mastermind thoughts and your thoughts left to mind my master, as I skip to work you skip much faster. and I thought I was goin to be the biggest prodige as I walk toward my debut, but there I am and the crowd replies with a boo, and so I walk or rather there I fall off stage, and you lift me up and unlocked my lifes cage. and ever since the day I died you held my hand you’ve held it tight and I owe you thanks eventhough to owe is not to pay, but yet I will for I do not steal. So I embark on a journey to noon. with my gloves and my boots all ready to soar, but my wing was shot or maybe it was not, cause I just remembered you were the one with wings and I was not, so instead of being shot I guess I am dropping, but wait here you come like a angel in disguise, but yet there is no disguise for your beauty shines out, and it shines from inside as well which makes me sure that I haven’t fell, so you catch me and place me back on the slope just for me to make you mad and you to push me back off. that wasn’t my intention, it actually never is, but that’s not the question, and it never was. So blue fairies and middle names, so fame is just a title to carry. So carry friend carry….carry away…

Baby Tucker

2005-11-15T23:41:00.001-05:00

___________________________babytucker_______________04.01.05

Verse1)

Abandoned and alone,
Walking aimlessly through a city,
Trying to find a place to call home,
He’s lived a life of pity,
Even though none has been shown.

Verse2)

Overpass and cardboard boxes,
He lives without his family,
No one to take care of him,
No one to be there for him,
I’d like to say he still owns hope,
But his future looks dim.

Chorus)

Little baby Tucker,
Living a life that no one wants to keep,
The poor boy Tucker,
Alone and deprived of sleep.
The sun will rise,
And the sun will set,
But Tucker’s life is left in darkness.
I wish there was something I could do,
His years are sure to be few.

Verse3)

Maybe the tears he cries at night,
Will sail him to a better place,
And maybe he won’t have a life to fight,
Or any dreams to chase
Just let his hope be his raft,
And let Tucker sail away.

Bad Dog, Red Moon

2005-11-15T23:41:00.000-05:00

_______baddogredmoon________________________________04.04.05

Verse1)

Waking up form my nightly hibernation,
by a dog who wouldn’t stop barking.
Peer out the window,
Looking for that mutt,
But my view is sidetracked by a figure in the sky.
My lips let out a whisper, “Red moon.

Chorus)

It was a bad dog,
And a red moon,
Signs showing suffering soon,
Sleep still knocking at the door,
Eyes wide open,
But my mind still snores,
The test of a man will shortly come,
That bad dog, that red moon.

Verse2)

Glance at my picture of her,
It could be my last,
My muscles tighten up,
They feel like an invisible cast.
My ears are straining form that dog,
Its seems to be raining form that moon,
Man I sure hope it ends soon.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

Arguing with my mind,
I think I’m falling insane,
This wind makes me catch my breath,
This dog is making me deaf,
She’s locked inside my heart,
And I hope the weather won’t tear us apart.

(Chorus)

Verse4)

Vomit all over the floor,
Too much rum the night before,
They lied when they said it was meat,
Now my stomach has faced defeat,
Hallucinations of dogs and moons,
Man that was great, let’s do it again.

Begin The Change

2005-11-15T23:40:00.000-05:00

________beginthechange______01.19.05

Verse 1)

          Have you ever tasted reality,
          or smelled the aroma of life?
          Have you ever heard the clash of swords,
          the ones known as words?
          The bitter flavor of hate and anger,
          stills not enough for you,
          to find something useful to do.
          Stop swallowing pain and strife,
          Make a difference,
          in this world,
          and in your life.

Chorus)

          Hearts beating frantically,
          And others aren’t beating at all.
          Times’ flying by drastically,
          You missed the things you wish you saw.
          Every time we’re on the edge of something new,
          we seem to slip and fall,
          The change begins with me and you,
          but it effects us all.

Verse 2)

          If impossible isn’t possible,
          Let us give up now.
          Let our dreams fade away,
          Let nobody hear what you say.
          But impossible is possible,
          and dreams become reality,
          when a change begins,
          and that starts with you and me.
(CHORUS)

What If It's True

2005-11-15T23:39:00.001-05:00

_______________whatifitstrue __________03.14.05

Verse1)

          When the center of the earth
          Is the center of your broken thoughts.
          When the edge of the world,
          Is the edge of your broken heart
          Just waiting for you to fall out.

Verse2)

          When the middle of nowhere
          Leads me somewhere you are.
          When the center of the earth
          Is the center of imagination,
          Just waiting to find a home.

Verse3)

          Let me lean against the wall,
          The wall that tends to fall on you.
          Let me pick some daffodils,
          The one you use to steal from me.
          Inside my heart.

Chorus)

          These pedals of hope keep
          Falling from the tree of tree of life.
          These tears that fall
          From my stitched up heart,
          Are the only things that’s keeping us apart.
          The glove I found
          When I tried to turn things around,
          Is the only thing I have of you.
          So much for what if it’s true.

Wasting Staples

2005-11-15T23:39:00.000-05:00

________________wastingstaples_________________04.14.05

Verse1)

At night when the worlds asleep, (B, G, E)
When the traffic lights are blinking, (B, G, E)
When I know I’ve faced defeat, (B, G, E)
But I can’t stop thinking. (B, G, E)

Chorus)

I’m that guy,(E9)
Far away,(E9)
Wide awake in my room,(E9, D)
Daydreaming,(E9)
In the night,(E9)
Of when I’ll find you soon,(E9, D)
Wasting staples as I pass the time,(E9, D)
Maybe while I wait I’ll find a rhyme,(E9, D)
I live for hope, and I hope for life,(F, C)
I’ll murder every mile in between,(F,C)
Even though this situation was foreseen,(F,C)
I’ll be wasting staples tonight.(B, E)

Verse2)

3am and all is well,(B, G, E)
Except for the fact that I feel like I’ve failed,(B, G, E)
Monkey parade through my life, through my mind, (B, G, E)
Stay as you are, I promise I’ll be just fine.(B, G, E)
You drew a picture of your face on my heart,(F, C)
Michelangelo of wishful art.(G, C)
Hold that picture deathly still,(F, C)
I’m gonna staple it so I’ll have it until….(F, G)

(Chorus)

Verse3)

Replay the first song I wrote in your head,(B, G, E)
Where this love is distant but existent,(B, G, E)
Even though every mile from you kills me more,(B, G, E)
And your not there when I open my door,(B, G, E)
Even though we don’t see each other much,(F, C)
I’ll one day be able to sleep,(F, C)
And stop wasting staples at night. (D, G)

(Chorus)

Twisted Paper Clips At Lunchtime

2005-11-15T23:38:00.001-05:00

twistedpaperclipsatlunchtime______03.19.05

Verse1)

Apart from you,
But still together.
Sorta reminds me of the last nine months.
What’s left for us?
I don’t know whether,
I like this idea or not.

Chorus)

Control my future,
But not my feelings
You see me here.
It’s me your killing.
You tried to save me,
And I have to admit,
You did a good job, but now you wanna quit.

Verse2)

For just one night, look into the shadows.
For just one day, let your feelings flow.
For just a second, think of the one.
Shield your eyes, and block the sun.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

I wound up surprised,
But don’t ask me why.
It’s like I’ve been going down a one way street.
Just waiting for our paths to meet,
What I meant was he got a second chance.
And all I’m getting is a lonely dance.

(Chorus)

Bridge)

I want you to know I still care about you.
I don’t want it to sound like I don’t.
As long as you live, I’m open arms,
As long as you live, I’m a shoulder to cry on,
By the way, this is how it’s always been.
Thanks for always just being my friend.

(Chorus)

The Night Before I Was Sad

2005-11-15T23:38:00.000-05:00

___________________________thenightbeforeiwassad______________10.18.05

Verse1)

Cuddled up, it’s a cold night,
Going up again, hold on tight,
Bound to the side, but I watched you dance,
Walking around so I thought Id take a chance.

Your cold hands, your small hands,
Front row seats, I’m your biggest fan.

Chorus)

And on the night before I missed you so bad,
We enjoyed ourselves and all the time we had.
Man what I would give to have that night again,
Or to live a little closer, to be more than just friends.

Verse2)

A funnel cake, and lemonade,
I don’t see why, she was so afraid,
Two nasty smoothies and one good one,
I tipped the lady even though we bought none.
Massaging a back whole youre walking didn’t quite work,
The pop of balloons and the noise makes my ears hurt.

Your cold hands, your soft hands,
Front row seats, I’m your biggest fan.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

And so the night comes to a pause,
As we get on the Ferris wheel,
It was so amazing but why did you pick me,
You could have anyone and everyone you see.
The taste of your lips, the sound of your laugh,
It wasn’t supposed to end, that night was suppose to last.
And the fireworks and my favorite last ride,
And the last time I sat by your side,
Thank you so much, for the time of my life,
And Ill see you in my dreams, but when I wake up…
when I wake up..
when I wake up…..ill be sad…..

And when you feel depressed,
just look at the spaces between your fingers,
and remember…that mine fit perfect in between.
Maybe one day…we’ll see…

Thanks and Congratulations

2005-11-15T23:36:00.001-05:00

_____________thanksandcongratulations__________03.08.05

     Verse1)

          Bravo
          I congratulate you.
          You got mad and you did what I knew you would do.
          So how’s it feel?
          Walking alone.,
          Dodging bullets wishing the result you had known.

     Chorus)


          And I applaud your stupidity.
          I give you a standing ovation.
          You’re no longer my remedy,
          Don’t worry what will happen to me.
          Thanks and Congratulations,

     Verse2)


          Sooner or later,
          Or maybe both,
          You’ll realize that it wasn’t my fault.
          You’ll want to be back in my thoughts.
          You’ll wish you were back in my arms.
          But they belong to someone else now.

     (Chorus)


     Bridge)


          You should’ve trusted me,
          I thought I knew you.
          So this is life without organization,
          I don’t want your explanation.
          You’ve got what you deserved.
          Now go live your ruined life.

     (Chorus)

Stick Figures

2005-11-15T23:36:00.000-05:00

__________________stickfigures_________________________03.28.05

(Chorus)

And as the plane rises,
And as the stomachs drop,
And everyone peers out the windows.
This little kid,
Has a smile on his face,
While he continues to draw stick men.

Verse1)

And I glance over his shoulder,
To get a better look at his notepad,
“What can I do for you sir?
And why do you look so sad?”
He offered to draw me a picture,
He offered me all he had.

(Chorus)

Verse2)

I read a book,
Then took a second look,
And the kid was drawing again,
Such a dreary day,
Nobody with much to say,
But the kid still keeps that grin.

Verse3)

And as he noticed my curiosity,
He began his life’s story,
He said nobody takes care of him,
And nobody has,
He said nobody is there for him,
And nobody was,
Before he died, his father gave him a pen,
And said son something this small will make you big
And he hasn’t put it down since.

(Chorus)

Bridge)

And when I asked him why he drew just stick figures,
He said that they show more emotion within action,
Rather than action within emotion.

Sounds of Sighs

2005-11-15T23:35:00.001-05:00

________soundsofsighs_____________06.23.05

Verse1)

This is stupid, were my thoughts while freezing in the back of the room,
Why am I waiting for some girl to speak her mind, or even make it up?
Jealousy kills its way through my immunities,
Why couldn’t of you just dumped me for who I am?

Chorus)

I’m tired of looking at you,
And receiving no look back,
You’re opposed to opposition.
And you’re obviously in favor with that,
I’m tired of missing you,
When it seems I’m ignored,
What else can I do?
I hope your happy, cause it’s gotta be endured.

Verse2)

We just can’t seem to know,
I think you’ve taken me way too serious,
Gosh this is getting on my freaking nerves,
Poison Ivy of my mind,
The more I scratch for an answer,
The more the itching spreads,
It’s weird but tomorrow I dread.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

Continuing on from my last night episode,
I really need to leave you alone,
A lonely couch a lonely swing,
A lonely day, and I can’t tell if you want it this way.

(Chorus)

Verse4)

Open ended questions,
To left open answers,
It’s so hard to forget a whole year in so little time.
Mesmerized by your eyes,
I’m hoping the rumors aren’t true,
Inside out and color blind,
But that’s how it’s supposed to be.

(Chorus)

Pointless Conversation

2005-11-15T23:35:00.000-05:00

__________pointlessconversation____________03.27.05

Chorus)

The roads were slick,
The lanes were small,
The accelerator was pressed to the floor.
I think I’m sick,
Catch me when I fall,
I wish I had’ve told her more.
Such a pointless conversation.

Verse1)

I can’t help believing,
That it was all my fault,
I guess I made her mad,
But that’s not what I thought,
So this is the ending exclamation,
What a waste of a perfect conversation.

(Chorus)

Verse2)

It just happened like that,
Now it is her who I lack,
The hand print on my face,
Reminds me of a place,
A place I never knew,
But at least it was with you.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

And she left the door open,
And I heard her start the car,
She hadn’t heard a word I said,
Or maybe she took it too far,
If she hadv’e stopped yelling,
She would’ve heard me telling,
That she shouldn’t go out tonight.

(Chorus)

Bridge)

She left me alone,
She didn’t say goodbye,
It burns me inside,
I wish I could hide,
Her last words of, “I hate you!”
Were obviously what was true,
I wish she had’ve heard my petition,
But instead it became just a pointless conversation.

(Chorus)

One Lane Street

2005-11-15T23:34:00.000-05:00

____________onelanestreet_____________06.03.05_____

Verse1)

Similarities of my dog and a rainstorm,
Pet her fur while I watch the clouds form.
You suicidal King of Hearts,
You Michelangelo of Wishful Art,
Box tops and car jams,
Belt buckles and door slams.
This one-lane street is far too small,
We were on the edge but we didn’t fall.

Chorus)

Lost and found,
Left to drown,
Dead to Daylight,
Alive and alright,
This one-lane street,
That human being,
I’ve faced defeat,
Release Rosaline.

Verse2)

Minutes of misplacements,
Decades of Decay,
Millions of refreshments,
But you call me out to play?
Pre-conceived notions,
Like a boat in an ocean,
The waters of your mind,
Either pick me up or leave me behind
(Chorus)

Verse3)

You laugh and you cry,
But your still not quite sure why,
Empty promises, for empty arms,
You’re quite the pharmacist, I pulled the alarm,
With a Brooklyn Tee,
And a desire to be free,
I got the latest edition,
The common attraction,
To our one-lane malfunction.

(Chorus)

Verse4)

Whispers near gravesites, near shadows, near streets,
I locked up my heart with graphite, late shows on have a seat.
When you read this think of me,
I’ll be thinking of you.
So confusing and you know that it’s true.
I’ll murder the kid, who thinks he’ll kid you,
I’ll rethink my words of mountain dew.
This one-lane street is facing D.O.T.,
Maybe they’ll widen it enough for me.

(Chorus)

My Friend

2005-11-15T23:33:00.001-05:00

_____________myfriend_____________03.14.05

Verse1)

     It’s been awhile good friend,
     Since I’ve heard your voice my friend.
     I called you up my friend,
     but you were gone my friend.
     It’s been awhile good friend,
     Since I’ve seen your smile my friend,
     And it’s killing me to ask where you’ve gone.

Chorus)

     And I scream.
     In pain and sadness.
     I throw down the phone,
     And I run inside.
     I fall asleep.
     But I had bad dreams.
     It’s been far too long, good friend,
     When will we talk again, my friend.

Verse2)

     It’s been 4 weeks, my friend.
     Since Ive talked with you good friend.
     And when I called,
     you were gone.
     It was like you packed up and left country,
      left your family and left me.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

     Sad and tired.
     Of fighting the days.
     The same days that separate our voices.
     If only I could see you,
     Maybe check up on you, my friend.

(Chorus)

My Apologies

2005-11-15T23:33:00.000-05:00

_____________myapologies ___________09.09.05

Verse1)

Summertime and a pool in the night,
Sometimes when I think I’ve failed to fight,
In search of frogs turns into a constant search for you,
I’m calling my lawyer, and I’m planning to sue,
Being that beautiful must be illegal,
But what does it matter, when you hear that come from every guy,
You put away the bag of Doritos, but still I ask why,
I bet I could have been better at tennis,
If I concentrated on the ball and not on you.

Chorus)

You ask me how on earth I found you and your pretty face,
Well we all know angels don’t dwell on earth so you seemed a little out of place,
Memories are memories, they fade but don’t erase,
Like a moonlit dance and ten bruised toes,
From where I stepped on the girl that I chose,
And a night awake thinking of her in the next room,
And some things never change but some things we must assume,
I just wish you would’ve known,
I just wish I had’ve told you then.

Verse2)

A boardgame at a beach house,
a movie upstairs but we were only ten,
I should’ve told you my little secret long ago when it would’ve meant something,
‘Cause now every guy is waiting in line and it’s backed up until I turn sixty-nine.
Now the flashbacks are more than quick flashes,
They are more like non-leaving memories,
Of times when I just wanted to hold you tight,
So if it matters these are my apologies.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

You now that feeling when you wished upon the star and it burned out,
or the feeling when you throw a coin into a wishing well and its all drained out,
Or you finally find the words to say,
With an open mailbox but the wrong address,
So no reply but I must confess,
That whoever prince charming turns out to be, is only prince charming because he’s charmed to be with you….

(Chorus)

Mona Lisa Smile

2005-11-15T23:32:00.000-05:00

____________monalisasmile_____________________04.02.05

Verse1)

The day your smile lifts my world,
Will only come too soon,
The days fly by,
But yet they pass so slow,
Sun on my back,
And dust in my mouth,
Troubled times,
But your smile I’ll never lack.

Chorus)

You see it might seem complicated,
And the situation overrated,
But few things in this first life shine,
And one of those things belong to you,
Your smile might seem like a normal trait,
But never take it for granted,
‘Cause it means the world to me.

Verse2)

When life is abandoned,
And dimples no longer show,
When ashes float throughout the wind,
The ashes that dwell below,
Look toward your voice,
I’ve been waiting awhile,
For that smile,
So don’t let me down.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

Draining form this dry ravine,
Coughing up what I’ve foreseen,
Scrapes and rocks,
Random times I’ll find your smile.
Braided hair,
I’ll be waiting here,
When you come around the corner,
Or when you cross the bridge,
Your smile comes to me,
Let the blind see.

(Chorus)

Moment Ruiner?

2005-11-15T23:31:00.001-05:00

____momentruiner?________09.28.05

Verse1)

A stamped envelope with my name and address,
You so ditched me, but I was the one who left,
Fourteen years and many days,
And many lines I’ve had to rephrase.
The stars are waiting, they are calling out,
They look down at us looking up,
They wonder what all our wishing is about,
Then one shoots off, the wish comes true,
Another reason why dreams are pursued.

Chorus)

Half-mast, heartbreak,
My last, mistake,
Acquired, my mind,
Desired, to find,
The missing link to this so-called chain of dreams,
You made me blink, and now you’re gone or so it seems.

Verse2)

Amusing how distance,
Can be such a resistance,
But it doesn’t mean love isn’t existent.
Notice how we have a song,
I have a ring, you have my word,
Lets catch the next train out and let’s be gone.

Verse3)

Secret is out, but it always was,
Whatever happens, happens as it does,
Soft southern accent and a want to do right,
A want to come over and hold you tight,
You say you’re a moment runnier I’d have to disagree,
You saved the moment and you saved me.

Letters From Singapore

2005-11-15T23:31:00.000-05:00

________________lettersfromsingapore____________________05.12.05

Verse1)

Staring deep into those careless eyes,
Let me sit and sympathize,
Teardrops fall then they vaporize,
I’m writing a letter to myself today.

Chorus)

Yard gnomes dwell in your front lawn,
They look happy, but they don’t know he’s gone,
The mailman comes and maybe he’ll stop this time,
The clouds stay near, but maybe the sun will shine,
You’ve become an embedded fixation with your hands on the door,
Just waiting and wishing to receive letters,
From Singapore.

Verse2)

When distance becomes your arch-enemy,
When your alter-ego becomes just a simple casualty
Broken lines that paint the road,
They lead me back, they lead me home.
April rain, and August sun,
Pick some dandelions, put down the gun,
Patience will bring him home.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

Well he’s been serving in the military,
For what seems like half a century,
You celebrate the lonely holidays,
Where the only one who is with you is your heart of decay,
They shipped him to Singapore,
They said one year, but you know it’s been more.
You’ve wrote him letters, but he hasn’t replied,
You’ve sat on those porch steps and everyday you’ve cried,
You can’t make him miss you,
But at least you can say you tried.

(Chorus)

Verse4)

The mailman slows then he comes to a stop,
You wipe your tears and you pull yourself together,
He reaches out his hand,
And he gives you a letter,
Your heart is pounding as you go inside.
You rip open the envelope, then start to read,
“Dear Mrs. Maggy, ….your lover has died.”
And with a mixture of emotions and feelings,
You’re feeling sad and your feeling hopeless,
It came rather quickly I shall confess.

(Chorus)

Verse5)

And today I visited Maggy,
To see how she was doing.
On her bed lay evidence and artifacts,
A gun and blood, and a rather helpless act.
Who could do this to a girl that always shines?
Then I saw her last note that says,
“I did it to myself this time.”

(Chorus)

Identity Theft

2005-11-15T23:30:00.001-05:00

_________________________identitytheft_____________________05.16.05

Verse1)

For almost a year now,
I’ve been something I’m not.
Caught in what’s thought to be normal,
You pulled the trigger and I got shot.
Life and its complications,
You and I and our mis-communications,

Chorus)

And for so long now,
I’ve been stealing identities,
Trying to find the perfect personality,
And for so long now,
You’ve watched me try to be,
Somebody that I’m not,
I wish you could forgive me.

Verse2)

Why in life and love,
Do I conform to the culture?
Why didn’t you
Stop me before you left?
I wish I could’ve told you then,
That it’s not me it’s just a case of identity theft.

Verse3)

I find it funny,
That when I finally find the words,
I find no one to tell them to.
And with angels passing and raindrops falling,
I tell you I’m alright and I am.
But I wish I had’ve been before.
Verse4)

You say I’m overcommited,
Eventhough I haven’t seen you much at all.
I wish I had’ve known,
That you didn’t want to hear those words I said to you,
I thought I was just doing what I was suppose to do,
But I got too wrapped up in custom,
And not the way I feel about you.
So I ask for your forgiveness,
if you have any left,
For spoiling your year with my identity theft.

Verse5)

I’m hoping now,
We can act how we meant to act.
I’m hoping now,
I won’t be somebody I wasn’t meant to be,
I feel like a year was wasted in a way,
You said yes ‘cause you thought I’d be me,
But then I go and steal somebody’s identity just to make you happy.

I believe in Like at First Sight

2005-11-15T23:30:00.000-05:00

____________ibelieveinlikeatfirstsight______________05.23.05

Chorus)

I finally realize,
When I’ve lost all I had,
That I use to look in your eyes,
And know if your day was good or bad.
I really didn’t mean what I had said,
I promise it was just Juliet in my head.
Blind eyes, and now our enemy has won the fight,
I realize that I’m a believer in like at first sight.

Verse1)

A broken picture on my shattered wall,
A beautiful girl, let me catch her when she falls.
The picture resembles our life apart but still together,
It resembles my broken heart, screwed up ‘cause I didn’t know better.
6am and a wasted two hours,
I thought you had him,
I’m sorry I left behind the flower.

(Chrous)

Verse2)

I find it funny, that one day can be a best and worse,
I had you in my arms, but then you were gone,
I should’ve gone ahead and initiated it first,
But I didn’t want to put you in a place you didn’t want to be,
I was just making sure I wasn’t stealing someone’s identity.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

I have so many questions,
But I don’t want to ask,
I feel like a failure,
But one with a mask.
I meant to dip you and have a successful twirl,
But I guess I was just too caught up in such a beautiful girl.

(Chorus)

Verse4)

Now that you see,
And now that we agree,
Can we talk it over,
And find some way to make it work?
I heard that angels don’t carry pistols,
But somehow you shot me,
And I think it hurt.
No hurt feelings, you can patch the wounds,
No more killing, we’ll figure this out soon.

(Chorus)

Verse5)

I love to see you smile,
And have it your way,
And whatever the slogan is for Chick-fil-a,
You asked for things to stay the same,
So what does that mean?
Can we still have our fun?
As long as I’m myself and believe in like at first sight.

(Chorus)

Verse6)

I don’t love,
at least not the way you say I do.
But I’ll stop,
I’ll do anything for you.
I hope things turn out right,
I’m now a believer in like at first sight.

(Chorus)

Ever Heard of Romeo and Juliet?

2005-11-15T23:29:00.001-05:00

______________________everheardofromeoandjuliet?_______04.18.05

Verse1)

Exaggeration of the mind not heart,
When I say we’re years apart.
Affirmed by balls of paper near the trash,
Trying to find the right words to say to you at last.
If you’ll dream of falling angels,
And Mona Lisa smiles,
We can be together separately,
It’s not like we haven’t tried.

Chorus)

Ever heard of Romeo and Juliet?
Partners in crime, but with no regret.
They risked their life, for the other ones’ love,
Held each other tight, through constellations that dwell above.
Not knowing what the morning brings,
They risked it all, for love in chains.

Verse2)

Counting sheep,
But not asleep,
Parasites of the mind.
A neighbor’s sympathy,
But not for me,
Even though I wasn’t fine,
We’ll wage this war on the battleground,
And the battleground is our enemy.
We’ll make sure to check the lost and found,
And let you know the possibilities.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

Once our enemy has faced defeat,
The enemy of miles on I-40,
We’ll write a nice epitaph in loving memory,
We’ll sign our names and say, “Let us be”
And that’s exactly what will set us free.

(Chorus)

Eighteen Candles and a Long Lost Love

2005-11-15T23:29:00.000-05:00

_________________eighteencandlesandalonglostlove________05.05.05

Verse1)

She said she met him in a coffee shop,
She said they talked and laughed a lot,
But she’s been known to dream non-stop,
So nobody know if she’s lying or not.

Chorus)

Eighteen candles and a long lost love,
She reached out, but gets denied from above,
I hope for her sake he turns out real,
She’s going insane, she can’t hold still.
She closes her eyes and makes a wish,
She blew her eighteen candles out,
All she needed was him.

Verse2)

Its 1am, she’s now 18,
You’ll find her sitting in front of the TV screen,
Anti-Depressant of chocolate ice cream,
She won’t fall asleep ‘cause she knows she’ll have those dreams.
(Chorus)

Verse3)

She grabbed the keys and slammed the front door,
She said this is my life why do I feel so insecure.
With her life’s failure as motivation,
She pulled up to a small gas station,
With a fake ID and a desire to be free,
She promised to find him if it’s the last thing she does,
Unfortunately that’s exactly what it was.
(Chorus)

Verse4)

She thought she was getting caught,
As the cashier started chasing after her,
It took only one shot,
To make her life a worst disaster,
And as she looked at the dead cashier,
I know she lost some tears,
She realized that she killed the one,
That she’d been looking for before she used the gun.
(Chorus)

Verse5)

Funeral as an after party,
We buried them side by side,
Eighteen with a future unforeseen,
But she was missing her long lost love.
(Chorus)

Backwords Backwards

2005-11-15T23:28:00.001-05:00

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  If it would mean anything anymore
Realizing all the things that I’ve said
And all the times I’ve lost you because of them
Of all the attacks I’ve led
And how your heart turned dim

Would you choke on the joke?
Because you forgot to laugh
Or did you decline your chance
Turned up your lip
Turned down a dance

I ran a red-light
And outran a cop
To bring you these flowers
I did all I could till I was caught

Drown solo
In the backyard pool
I take back my words
And they pull back my consequences as well
     I will be the living waiting

Angels with Pistols

2005-11-15T23:28:00.000-05:00

_______________angelswithpistols____________05.25.05

Verse1)

One last song, one last anthem,
One last chance, after the dance,
One last hug, one last kiss,
One last bullet, please don’t miss.

Chorus)

It’s angels with pistols,
The real killers of men,
We’re one day the best in the world,
Then the next we’re just another guy and a girl.
You pulled the trigger without hesitation,
You don’t even give us an explanation.
You’re an angel whose killing,
My heart and my feelings,
Can we figure this out, ‘cause I want you back in my arms.

Verse2)

Your choking on gum,
But we’re having some fun,
But I don’t know if it meant anything or not.
You said we’re at a different pace,
But I know that’s not the case,
Do you want to try again?

(Chorus)

Bridge)

Girls say they’re not complicating,
But we know that they are.
They tell you they need you,
Then one day they leave you,
They play hard-to-catch,
And we can never figure them out.
But right when we’ve lost all doubts,
They turn around and use the pistol.

(Chorus)

Verse3)

This will be my last song,
If you decide to move along,
But please do me a favor,
And don’t pull the trigger,
Without talking about what’s wrong.
This is hard for me to say,
But if it mattered in anyway,
Would you change your mind if I told you I hate you?

(Chorus)

Mellow Melody for Mandy

2005-11-15T23:27:00.000-05:00

______________mellowmelodyformandy__________11.09.05

Here it is guys.

Chorus)
This is my mellow melody for Mandy.
She’s trapped inside reality.
Her tears drain to the Trevi Fountain
Throw in a coin and feel her pain.
One of these days you’ll hear her shoutin'
That’s just her shadow being slain.

Verse1)
Well Mark left Mandy for another chic,
And mark found out that she got all sick.
Then Mandy found out that her friends Michelle,
Had kept many secrets that she would not tell.
So Mandy got up and went out for a beer,
Hold it in Mandy, hold in the tears.

Verse2)
Well Mandy's sister Blair had a fiancée,
His name was Eric at least it was yesterday.
But Mandy found out that Eric had a girl and a boy,
And then mother was Michelle and everything was destroyed.

Verse3)
Mark has been trying to frame Eric for something,
So he could get to Blair for free and for nothing.
Mandy's got beef with her step mom, Honey,
'Cause she cheated on her dad and she stole his money.
Mandy's brother is stuck in jail.
'Cause he stalked somebody named Michelle.

Verse4)
So now Mandy sits at home,
Eating chocolate ice-cream all alone.
Her life as a reminder,
And her past behind her,
She packs her bags and starts over.

Faded Orange Chalk

2005-11-15T23:26:00.000-05:00

_______________________________fadedorangechalk_______11.01.05A photogenic moonlight,Ill hold you close like last night,The whispered words i heardAnd all the evidence that I watched burn.From all of our faded orange chalk.Chorus)And i can look back,And still rememberThe memories we shared,From when we drew our stories,In the middle of Times Square,And with the dust,That came from that chalk,Everytime the wind blew.It painted a picture on a nearby wall,Of all the times I spent with you.Well it seemed just like yesterday,When you called me up from a pay phone, And said you had something to say.A secret you had kept,Since when we met that April day.And The sound i heard, once i heard your words,Was the sound of phone off reciever,My friend said maybe you shoudl believe her,And i realized that our orange chalk,had faded away....(Chorus)Later on,When i thought all feelings were gone.I called you up and found you in tears.I was suppose to be the guy that never cause pain,And i was suppose to be the one to shelter the chalk during the rain.Eventhough ive done it before,And although it doesnt mean more,I feel i must apologize,I felt your pain when i looked in your eyes.(Chorus)And our memories,Still lay drawn on the streets.In faded orange chalk,And in pictures that seem to talk.And as you pass by make sure you smile.Cause when the wind blows,The shavings of faded orange chalk follow.

Accent Mark

2005-11-15T23:25:00.000-05:00

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Verse 1)
The roses all look alike,
And all the guys seem to want to fight,
Cause they know I have you heart,
An added abstract accent mark.
A lipstick coated collar,
For another wasted dollar.
And I tied her wings up with her hair bow,
And every time she cried I told her no.
Her head on my shoulder,
She left it soaking wet,
She wanted me to hold her,
To look beyod her regrets.

Chorus)
A slur of speech,
And a wink of the eye,
A slave to life's leash,
But you still ask why.
And the accent mark above your name,
Reminds me you’re too caught up in fame.

Verse2)
A stand-alone invitation,
An added smirk for animation,
A lost perception of what's right,
Some community service and a trip to new hieghts.
A ruined city and an underground party,
Someone called the cops but they came too late,
You were passed out on the floor,
And as I looked at your closed eyelids,
I realized that you chose your fate.

(Chorus)

Verse3)
I carried you home one last time,
But this time you weren’t conscious,
Stumbling over things not even there,
And I laid you on your bed and I kissed you goodnight,
You didn’t know that it would be the last time I would hold you so tight.
You chose your path and you chose mine,
I can’t wait around for you to find,
The answer to the open-ended question

(Chorus)

Verse 4)
My wristwatch has finally died out,
Your name all over all the fancy magazines,
Defined and noticed by your accent mark,
And how you replyed to the false start.
Eyes of the ocean and hair of the sun,
If only there was an accent mark for everyone.

(Chorus)

Verse 5)
Quiet dear, I hit the snooze,
You can stay asleep, I hid the booze,
But when you wake up don’t expect to find,
A key to unlock what was left behind.
When you want to talk,
Just talk to the moon and stars,
And Ill take all fault,
Dance ballerina, in your high-price, rundown, too good for everyone else, leotard...

(Chorus)

Last Song

2005-11-15T23:24:00.000-05:00

_____________________lastsong___________11.11.05

So let your eyes keep rhythm as we dance to the last song,
Let the hint and the scent of your breath remind me this is where we belong.
Let’s forget all our pointless fights,
Let’s make this song last throughout the night.
Let’s hide from what seeks to find us.
Let’s make the world oblivious.

Chorus)

Cause this last song
Is a request to the DJ,
I owe this girl a dance,
Won’t you please let it play?
And once it’s heard,
Let me find you,
And let us dance to this last song.

You in your beautiful dress,
And me in a make-believe tux,
This dance means more than less,
Cause the last time we danced I know I sucked.
May I put my arms around you?
May I twirl you may dip you?
May I have forgiveness already?
For when I step on your toes?
Let’s hope our ride home is stuck and froze.

We’ll leave the dance, and all that it includes,
We’ll take our chances and we’ll drive under the moon.
We’ll walk the boardwalk down by the beach.
And we’ll remember the promises you thought I couldn’t keep.
Its love its not lust,
As I ask and I must,
When this night is over will you want it back?

We will say goodbye to the ocean and it will wave back.
We will spend that night laughing and smiling at each others smiles.
We will put the song on playback,
And let it play for awhile.
We will stop at our lookout place,
And we will climb on top of the car.
I will look down on your beautiful face,
And you will notice the stars.

Arms around each other as we lay there in silence,
Not asking the want, and not wanting to ask.
The stereo will act in defiance,
As I try to play the song, and it denies the task.
You tell me its ok,
So I totally forget about it.
I look down at you,
And let your eyes keep rhythm as we danced to the last song.

And once the stars pass and we wake up to the sun,
All alone on that car and the last song is done,
Ill drive you home,
And Ill hug you goodbye,
Ill leave all alone,
And we both ask ourselves why.
But that remains hidden even if we want to know.
Cause we are too scared to answer it and let our feelings flow.
If only I could show in a way not as transparent.
We could dance to our last song. It will deny me, but I dare it.

Introducing.........

2005-11-15T21:19:00.000-05:00

Hey kids. This blogspot is going to be a place I record my songs so people can read them and tell me what they think of them. I will be posting probably all that I write. No matter how long or what about. Well I mean if its my buisness Im not going to share it with yall, but this is where Im going to record my songs. This will be fun I assure you. And fun to go back and have a place where I can read all of them. The main focus on this blogspot is not to get attention mind you, but because I think it will be a neat thing to do. So thanks and until my song postings.....goodbye.